you know i thought that this was going to be fun. well it is. i cant complain.but all the while i think what if?what if? i would never know what it would be like you know.i can hear the sounds from above but still my mind is nowhere near there. wonder what you would have done. i know what you would have wanted me to do. i know i am eventually going to do it.but i just miss u. thats all. even when it hits me i will be wondering.what if?